Chuckin' up the deuces

Chris Brown Feat. Tyga & Kevin MCcall - Deuces by la-redoute

Good evening. I have been feeling real focused on a particular someone in my life. He is new and vibrant. At this moment he is nameless to the blogsphere just like past male prospects. I know for a fact that I am focused on him because I had an encounter today that was extremely awkward. I had a potential suitor a few weeks back that I talked about whom was from the past that I made current. I have noticed that we have not hung out since we went to see Talib Kweli a few weeks back. I text him recently and about 5 hours later I get a text from him asking what I'm up to. When I told him I was cooking, he made sure to send a text to ask me what I was cooking.

From that moment, I became a little distant. Like I said prior in another post, I am focused on doing me. But nothing makes it more awkward then seeing the person you are avoiding randomly in the street. Mind you I am cordial but today I acted as if I didn't see him. And what did he do? He followed me and called my name. As I am going up the escalators to my favorite store, I waited for him just to see what he wanted. I guess my face said it all because he told me to look happy that I saw him. Of course in my brain I am saying "Negro please" and thinking "why should I be happy?" I think I am beginning to understand why women become so mad at men. I just see what he thinks of our status. To him it must be OK go back and forth without me showing emotion or without questioning his motives. It became so obvious. After our encounter, I had a discussion with a friend about what she thought about him. She told me that it looked like he wasn't interested. Her comment made me think I was doing the right thing because she validated what I already thought and for a person looking from the outside, it must've been apparent. So I'm using my index finger and middle to chuck up the deuces. Thanks for the experience dawg...