It's been more of a bumpy road. A more of a self induced bumpy road but one nontheless. I am finally done with this semester of school and do not know what to do with myself. I am constantly thinking about the next road or step I might cross. In recent reflections, I can honestly state that SCHOOL is not it for my life. I think I made a mistake going straight to school and not trying to figure out what my place in the world would be. I guess I am just being lazy. The paper that Carly talked about me doing was turned in half-assed. I am very disappointed in myself because I could have produced an excellent paper if I applied myself. I 'm not down in the dumps about the decisions I have made it is more about trying to be the best me I can be.The best me is one outside of school seeking and wanting danger (safe) and adventures. I found out yesterday that I can stay up for the most random shit but when it comes down to schoolwork, I turn off my lamp by my bed and call it a night. I have a Fuck School mentality. So now I am patiently waiting for grades just to see if I will even be in school next semester. If I am or even if I am not, I hope to gain momentum with what I'm want to be. Be more of a hustler rather than be someone playing in the background. Opportunities don't always present themselves. In the words of Scarface, "The world is mine".
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